Never Improve

How long more till PMR & T4PY? 3 months? 4 months? Or maybe 5months? Hello!! The clock is ticking now!! Do I still need to wait for my "best" friend or continue the journey alone? If I continue the journey alone, I will loose my best friend ; if I wait for my "best" friend, I will fail my PMR & T4Py : if I choose both, I will eventually get nothing in the end. Actually today during SPA time, I wanted to raise up my hand for the people who like performing, but I do not dare to raised up. So I think that already proved me how "brave" am I!!